An inner conversation with fear
It’s always personal!
My fear is not your fear.
Your fear is your own,
and Mine is mine.
Millions of people are afraid now, anxious, staring into the unknown. In some respects we are all in this together, but also –
Each of us has specific triggers, different life experiences and traumas rearing their heads in the dark.
I find myself at night, when all is quiet around me, hearing the voice of a very scared little girl.
I stay there listening to her. What is she saying? What scares her most?
I stay, I listen more.
She says more.
I stay, she stays.
She listens to me. I don’t disregard her.
She stays. I don’t overlook her feelings.
We stay.
We speak more.
I put my hand on my belly, her belly.
I breathe.
It’s different every time. I don’t pretend to know that “Everything is going to be ok.”
Or hurry to declare “It’s just a childish fear “, or, “you are being a drama queen.”
In trauma, if we dismiss the symptoms, ignore the behaviors and feelings that arise,
we leave a part of ourselves alone in the dark. Over and over again.
I, like many others, have been traumatized.
My body was dying even as I thought it was living.
Since then, every headache, earache, cough, seems to me like the end is coming.
Luckily, I healed.
My inner voice doesn’t always trust that, though.
With even more luck, I realized that this conversation exists and that listening
is always available for both of us – myself and I.
So at night, when the world sleeps, I talk with the little girl that lives inside my heart.
I help others, too, talk with, and listen to, their hearts, and am happy to invite you to this kind of conversation.
Online sessions are welcome. (English & Hebrew)
With love 
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Michal Halev-
Facilitator of Conversations:
on the journey to the heart